Love @ Staring

Love @ Staring

Love always comes as a surprise, you cannot resist. There is a saying: Ishq Par Zor Nahin Hai Yeh Woh Aatish hai, ‘Ghalib’, Jo Lagaaey Na Lage, Aur Bujhaaey Na Bane. This is a love story of a strong girl Simran from Punjab who falls in love with a loving and caring boy Raj from Kolkata.

Why the hell on this earth that boy is staring at me?” said Simran to one of her best friend Myra. I have seen this boy, this boy is staring me from the first day of my engineering day. One day I will knock down his head as I don’t feel comfortable when people do such things. “I think he is in deep love with you but not having courage to face you directly so he stares” said Myra to Simran. Simran shouted over Myra and told her that there is nothing called as love in this world and they left for the hostel.

This is how the semester got completed and they started staring each other without a single word and only one thing happened in the entire semester was “staring”. Same thing started again at the beginning of the second semester. I liked these stuffs but suddenly something came into my mind and I just get up from my seat and grabbed the seat next to him in the cafeteria. He was socked with my behavior. I asked him what he wants from me and why he is doing these things. I told that I belong to a family where caste and religion plays an important role. There is no future if we try to continue these things. I was talking like a hanged tape recorder without a single stop pause. The answer from the boy was unexpected, “are you an astrologer? Arey we have not tried yet so how can you come to a conclusion and left the cafeteria for the class. I also left for my next class after lunch.

This staring thing was still going on. That was the night that I can’t or don’t want to forget. I got a call from an unknown number. I picked up the call and it was his call. Although I was very happy with the call but from the front I started enquiring lots of things like how did he managed to get my number, why did he called me at this time. Being a girl I have to ask these things because I can’t say that I love the way he stares and the way he was talking over the phone. After having a long conversation over the phone, I was in a comfortable zone, I explained him the issues of my family’s conservative and old bloody religious thoughts. He convinced me that lets first understand each other and after that we will convince our parents if we are sure about relationship.

We continued our conversation for almost 6 months and on the first day of my 3^rd semester when I was going for the registration process with him, he gifted me a box and told me to open that box in the hostel alone. He also told me that he will call me if you like the gift then call me immediately because knowing your thoughts is the only priority for me.

After registration, I went to the hostel and unwrapped the gift. It was having a small silver pendent with a pic of both of us and a letter stating I wanted to be in your neck for the rest of my life. Please tell me yes and I will promise you that I will manage my and your family. I just need your love and support, nothing else. I was crying like anything and forget to call him as I was thinking about various ifs and buts.

Next morning when I visited college he was neither in classroom nor in the cafeteria. I asked his roommate about Raj. He told me that he is not feeling good from yesterday night. I went to the hostel and knocked the door. He was having swallow and wet eyes.  I realized that I have done the blunder and I hugged him so hard with only one statement, “I am yours and you are mine”. He hugged me so tight that I can feel his heartbeats.

I was on cloud nine; I wanted to pause this time. I was having a best friend for life cum a very caring and loving life partner what a girl can think of. The 3 years were the best phase of my life. We are still together supporting each other in cementing ourselves in the corporate world, the first pillar to establish my love. This is a very important phase of my life because a stable career can help us in convincing our family. I know we are still having 3-4 years but sometimes I feel the dragon fire that what will happen if I will not the yes from the family members. I can run away with the boy but the marriage is not about just two people because it is about the entire family. We are working day and night on our first pillar of the love. Hope I will get the support of god as well in achieving my goal of “THE STARING LOVE”. If I will succeed, I will not say this as love at first sight but will say love at staring.

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Happy Birthday

Hello Everyone!!! Hope you all are doing well in your life. It has been a long time during which I have not written anything. I was watching a TV program yesterday on the occasion of birthday of Bharat Ratna Sri Atal Bihari Vajpayee. The poems on the show were just mind boggling no words or sentence can express the beauty of his writing skills. I am trying to dedicate this poem ऊँचाई written by him only on the occasion of his 90^th Birthday. May God Bless him with health and wealth .

ऊँचाई

ऊँचे पहाड़ पर,
पेड़ नहीं लगते,
पौधे नहीं उगते,
न घास ही जमती है।
जमती है सिर्फ बर्फ,
जो, कफन की तरह सफेद और,
मौत की तरह ठंडी होती है।
खेलती, खिल-खिलाती नदी,
जिसका रूप धारण कर,
अपने भाग्य पर बूंद-बूंद रोती है।
ऐसी ऊँचाई,
जिसका परस
पानी को पत्थर कर दे,
ऐसी ऊँचाई
जिसका दरस हीन भाव भर दे,
अभिनन्दन की अधिकारी है,
आरोहियों के लिये आमंत्रण है,
उस पर झंडे गाड़े जा सकते हैं,
किन्तु कोई गौरैया,
वहाँ नीड़ नहीं बना सकती,
ना कोई थका-मांदा बटोही,
उसकी छांव में पलभर पलक ही झपका सकता है।

सच्चाई यह है कि
केवल ऊँचाई ही काफि नहीं होती,
सबसे अलग-थलग,
परिवेश से पृथक,
अपनों से कटा-बंटा,
शून्य में अकेला खड़ा होना,
पहाड़ की महानता नहीं,
मजबूरी है।
ऊँचाई और गहराई में
आकाश-पाताल की दूरी है।
जो जितना ऊँचा,
उतना एकाकी होता है,
हर भार को स्वयं ढोता है,
चेहरे पर मुस्कानें चिपका,
मन ही मन रोता है।

जरूरी यह है कि
ऊँचाई के साथ विस्तार भी हो,
जिससे मनुष्य,
ठूंट सा खड़ा न रहे,
औरों से घुले-मिले,
किसी को साथ ले,
किसी के संग चले।
भीड़ में खो जाना,
यादों में डूब जाना,
स्वयं को भूल जाना,
अस्तित्व को अर्थ,
जीवन को सुगंध देता है।
धरती को बौनों की नहीं,
ऊँचे कद के इन्सानों की जरूरत है।
इतने ऊँचे कि आसमान छू लें,
नये नक्षत्रों में प्रतिभा की बीज बो लें,
किन्तु इतने ऊँचे भी नहीं,
कि पाँव तले दूब ही न जमे,
कोई कांटा न चुभे,
कोई कलि न खिले।
न वसंत हो, न पतझड़,
हों सिर्फ ऊँचाई का अंधड़,
मात्र अकेलापन का सन्नाटा।
मेरे प्रभु!
मुझे इतनी ऊँचाई कभी मत देना,
गैरों को गले न लगा सकूँ,
इतनी रुखाई कभी मत देना।

Merry Christmas and a happy & prosperous new year 2015

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Journey of Life...........................

Sometime Its Easy To Accept Some Words which explain the Journey of your life. My 3rd Blog is an attempt to describe the journey of my life in the form of poem.

I was born
I was a crying horn

I was a baby
I was a teddy

I smiled
I laughed

I sleep
I flip

I walked
I matured

I was taught
I fought 

I never gave up
I hang up

I tried
I achieved

"I am Rising and will Rise"

Something that I really Mean.

You may write me down in history 

With your bitter, twisted lies, 

You may trod me in the very dirt 

But still, like dust, 

I'll rise. 

Does my sassiness upset you? 

Why are you beset with gloom?

Cause I walk like I've got oil wells 

Pumping in my living room. 

Just like moons and like suns, 

With the certainty of tides, 

Just like hopes springing high, 

Still I'll rise. 

Did you want to see me broken? 

Bowed head and lowered eyes? 

Shoulders falling down like teardrops. 

Weakened by my soulful cries. 

Does my haughtiness offend you? 

Don't you take it awful hard 

Cause I laugh like 

I've got gold mines 

Digging' in my own back yard. 

You may shoot me with your words, 

You may cut me with your eyes, 

You may kill me with your hatefulness, 

But still, like air, 

I'll rise. 

Does my sexiness upset you? 

Does it come as a surprise 

That I dance like I've got diamonds 

At the meeting of my thighs? 

Out of the huts of history's shame 

I rise 

Up from a past that's rooted in pain 

I rise 

I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide, 

Welling and swelling I bear in the tide. 

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear 

I rise 

Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear 

I rise 

Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave, 

I am the dream and the hope of the slave. 

I rise I rise I rise.

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IT JUST HAPPENED

Hangover Teri Yado Ka...

I know it sounds funny but guys in real life hangover rahta hi hai love stories mai.

Anyways!!!

Hi Everyone !!! Hope You People are rocking in your respective places.

I heard a beautiful story of my friend recently and socha let’s put these things on the paper. It’s a typical love story so there will be nothing new but for me it’s a new experience.... Not the story but converting real life experience in to the form of words.

So the story starts like Once Upon a Time.... Hey hey wait it's not story...it's a life exp. So I think I have created enough drama till now in this blog.. Now I should start.

Aarav, a 22 years old guy. He is funny, cool, Ek dam mast types...

He was too good in education, sports and friendship. As I said too good at friendship obviously surrounded with friends all the time. The best buddy of whole college.

One day he went for a tea during break of college lectures with his friends (Kalpana, suchita and Avi, Raju and Krishna). As the tea conversation started, Kalpana's roommate Avira came and joined the tea party. In the entire conversation Aarav was just watching Avira and in his entire 22 years of life it was his first experience that he started liking someone (love shuv wala like).

Now Aarav wanted to know Avira but afraid of asking things from Kalpan to avoid any friendship problem with her.

One pleasing day he got Facebook request from Avira. Excited Aarav without a blink accepted it and this was the first step of love.. No no not yet. None of 2 had expressed there feelings. It was only occasional chats that's it.

Life was going on, and their college life comes to an end and Aarav got placed to big MNC Bank in Bangalore. Somehow there was a strong feeling or we can say a soft corner for Avira was still there in the heart of Aarav. After 2 months of joining office he called the Kalpana and told the entire thing about his feeling for Avira. Kalpana told Aarav that she will pass on the message to Avira. After this Avira unfriend Aarav from the Facebook. Aarav did not inform Kalpana that Avira has unfriend him. Aarav did not ask any explanation for this. Aarav was having a strong believe on his love.

After 1 year when he was in a conference with his General Manager got a beep on his mobile that Avira has sent you the friend request. Damn can u believe that the same feelings which was there when first time request had come. Aarav without thinking for a second accepted the friendship and all over again started chatting on fb. As if history repeating itself. I think this all happened just because of social sites. Anyways aapne ko kya. After 1 week they started chatting on whatsapp (see again a social platform) and on one day Avira told Aarav that she was shocked and under fear of her family so she has unfriend Aarav from FB. (I think this is bullshit, uske family ko kaise Pata chalega what's going on in her head till she opens her mouth) After 2 days of talk they started chatting on skype (lo Bhai Ek aur social site) almost 10 hrs a day on weekdays and 12-16 hrs a day on weekend. He came to know that the Avira stays in Delhi and working with a big IT firm. Aarav told her that he is going to come in few weeks to Delhi for some office work. Now both of them excited in life and started counting the days. They finally meet for the first time after 2 years of long wait. They enjoyed the whole 10 days with each other after office hours.

They accepted the love for each other. NOW finally love story starts. Aarav told his parents that he like someone, parents were ok with aarav decision although a strong pressure was there to change the decision. He told Avira that he has informed his parents about their love and told Avira to at least inform her parents but due to so called family fear she started asking for time. Aarav went to the Bangalore and they started chatting normally. One day they had a big fight. The reason was a simple thing that Aarav told Avira that friends never change no matter what... They are always there for you when they feel bored or feel low or need some positive vibes. On that day Aarav felt first time that boss kuch to gadbad hai. She has changed.

Aarav ignored everything because he was in deep love with this girl.(we say pyar andha hota hai, it's so true. ) Slowly their love completed 3 years and slowly the fight also started increasing between them even on stupid things like definition of love. Aarav from his childhood is an egoistic person but he never put his ego during the conversation with the Avira. Aarav stared feeling that the girl is self-centric and independent girl(which he think are the USP of that girl) but there was a problem with Avira that she don't like to listen things and understand others feeling.

On One day, Aarav was having high fever and went to the doctor for checkup. Doctor recommended a high dose medicine due to which he went into a deep sleep. After 3-4 hrs of deep sleep he wake up and was shivering because of his 'darawana' dream in which Avira was telling that the love proposal was just for time pass. Suddenly (this suddenly thing did happened I am not adding masala) he got a call from the Avira and Aarav told her about the dream and asked her "Do you really love me?" She told him to take rest and told him that they will talk later. Aarav slept, in the morning his whatsapp was full with lots of message from Avira about the dream that Aarav has seen. She told him that he has "you don't trust me" that you asking me whether I love u or no. "Galti Ho gayi FB par friendship bhej kar" and many more things. Aarav was trying to tell her that it was just the dream which has been shared. Now Aarav was under shock that what happened to this girl. The fight was not getting resolved and Aarav was facing both personal, health and professional problems. Due to this fight, he had bad day at office and he lost a big business due to which his salary went on hold for 2 months and also his fever was not coming down from 103.

On the fifth day when he was trying to resolve everything his fever and relationship, he got frustrated and lost the temper told Avira that "Dear Avira, I love you alot, I respect you alot but i think you don't deserve me, i am not of your type" and this is how the relationship came to an end. On the next day, he called Avira to give a chance to the relationship but she started making fun of Aarav among her friends and this hurt Aarav's ego and He promised himself that he will never call Avira again. “Waise bhi Avira has told Aarav jo apna hota hai laut ke wapas aata hai and jo wapas nhi aata wo kabhi apna nhi hota and wo laut ke kabhi nhi aayi” 

(so Finally story solve the puzzle of title. Hangover To Rah Gaya Tha Jo Dhire Dhire Nimbu Pani Ke aane se chala gaya. )

Due to this he has to face the trauma for the next 3 years. Now he is a successful person in his field and achieving new milestones each and every day. This is how the story of 3years of love (excluding the 2 years of their fir conversation over tea) came to an End, and I got a chance to type it down.

Sorry Aarav, I am not a good writer but tried to put a love in a story format. Hope it has explained what you were trying to explain me. All the best

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